Dual Thought Book

[YugureMuffin]

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This will be a collection of thoughts from Lily and Iris.
This is not a blog so no one can react.
This is more of a diary which can of course be stolen, but don't do so without asking me first.
If they were to lose their diary, I'll place a comment here in fat capital letters. (and probably make it red)
I'll be posting in Times New Roman, because I am such a weirdo like that.
My comments will be in default font.

Iris's thoughts will be in italics.
Lily's will be just left like that.

Enjoy!

[YugureMuffin]

I have been hanging out with Amir for days on end. He’s a lot of fun and I like his company very much. And don’t forget that his monkeys are absolutely adorable.

I do have troubles though. I am scared. He is so easy to fall for and that’s plain bull shit. But he’s a flirt and a cheat, he’s a thief. He’s probably such a god damn good liar. And we all know how those relationships end!

I don’t want to fall in love right now. Don’t get me wrong! I really want to have someone who I can trust and can build a relationship with. But it’s just… I have Lily, I can’t… I don’t think I’ll be ever able to have a serious relationship which won’t go down the gutter.

And who knows, who knows I won’t be alive that much longer. Enyo said I’d still be around for several years… but that’s not a long time. I wish I had a body on my own, I don’t want to be someone’s creation like a character from a book. I want my own life! I want to not think of Lily all the time! I don’t want to disappear one day or other! That’s another thing! What if I have a relationship and I disappear? My other half would be left in tears!

I just…
I can’t!
I shouldn’t!
I mustn’t!

…

What to do?

[YugureMuffin]

I wasn’t going to record this because of reasons, like what if it all goes wrong and then I have to read this afterwards? But now I am like okay let’s record this anyway. So! Here we go.

I … I took the jump …
Well actually … It was all more uncomfortable. ^^;
Basically … Wait, I’ll start from the beginning.

On the 8th of April I met Amir at the stairs, he was in my way. He asked me to lunch with him. Of course I accepted. How could I refuse? Well after lunch we got followed. I noticed and I knew Amir noticed as well. At one point he put me down, because I sat on his shoulder, and he told me to hide. And I thought “Why?” I mean like, I am sturdy and I am a unicorn, yes. The men that followed us, were definitely up to no good. Amir was fighting and at one point the other one took me by my hair and put a sword to my neck. Of course I could save myself. I wasn’t born a fighter for nothing! (You know born … yeah.) But Amir got badly hurt, so I ran over to heal him and the little prick didn’t even want my healing. I healed him anyway. He should be grateful, he could have died. Afterwards we went to the library and then to my dorm room to teach him reading and writing. Amir became angry, when we took a break, because I “turned him down” for the that maniest time. (As if I knew.) So I was kind of “forced” to say “I love you.” so he wouldn’t leave. AND had to tell the secret Lily and I share. (He gave me a secret in return, though, that’s fair.) And then it still took a while before he accepted me. So basically we got together uncomfortably. If I could say it like that. And then we had a REALLY REALLY fun time together.

So I can't really say I took the jump. I was pushed over the edge more likely.

I really like being with Amir in all sorts of ways. (If I can put it like that.) He’s both cheeky and cute. He’s a real diamond in the rough. I guess that’s the best way to explain. I love him.

I am still scared, though. He’s a player after all. He’s going to hurt me, I know. I don’t know if I can shield myself from that, though. We’ll see.

For now I’ll indulge myself in Amir’s love.

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